Smile

I play the circus clown around my friends
Make them laugh and they won't see
That you never let them see you sweat
Don't want them to think the pain runs deep
Lord knows it's killing me

So I put on my make-up
Put a smile on my face
And if anyone asks me
Everything is okay
I'm laughing cause no one
Knows the joke is on me
Cause I'm dying inside
With my pride and a smile
On my face

For Me

I don't want to date someone who is desperate to be in a relationship. How do you know if they're in it for you or they're in it because they don't want to be alone....

Where's the art?

I used to be surrounded by the arts and now it seems like I'm so far removed from it I can barely remember how it feels to sweat under the hot lights in a three sided room that I helped build. As I lay awake last night, unable to sleep for whatever reason I started thinking about my job and how sometimes it feels like a never ending circle with no conclusion. It's almost like I start over each month with the same set of tasks and demands. I enjoy my job and the people there are like my family. I also enjoy all the things I am able to do because of my job but there's no art in it. Maybe it's up to me to find the art in it. I don't know. With theatre you have a beginning and an eventual end even if it's sometimes bittersweet. I miss it...

I think I'm getting a little bit of cabin fever with my life...

Don't You Remember?

When will I see you again?
You left with no goodbye, not a single word was said
No final kiss to seal anything
I had no idea of the state we were in.

I know I have a fickle heart and bitterness
And a wandering eye, and a heaviness in my head

But don't you remember, don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby please remember me once more.

When was the last time you thought of me?
Or have you completely erased me from your memories?
Cause I often think about where I happen to roam.
You more I do, the less I know.

But I know I have a fickle heart and bitterness
And a wandering eye, and a heaviness in my head.

But don't you remember, don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby please remember me once more.

Ohhhh

I gave you the space so you could breathe,
I kept my distance so you would be free,
I hope that you find the missing piece
To bring you back to me.

Why don't you remember, don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby please remember you used to love me.

When will I see you again?

everything...

It meant everything to me
Now it means everything to someone else...