Focus

I've been trying to write something on here for days but I can't seem to get my mind to focus long enough for one train of thought. So I'm laying in bed, listening to Bette Midler (judge me), trying to clear my mind and get some sleep but sleep doesn't seem interested. I have no focus...just flailing about...

I AM...

"I Am"

I am timid and
I am oversensitive
I am a lioness
I am tired and defensive
You take me in your arms
And I fall into you
I have insecurities
You show me I am beautiful

Love me or leave me
Just take it or leave it
It's not that I'm needy
Just need you to see me

Take me, free me, see through to the core of me
Take me, free me, there will be no more pretending

Mmmm...

I am temperamental and
I have imperfections and
I am emotional
I am unpredictable
I am naked
I am vulnerable
I am a woman
I am opening up to you

Love me or leave me
Just take it or leave it
It's not that I'm needy
Just need you to see me

Take me, free me, see through to the core of me
Take me, free me, there will be no more pretending

Now I stand before you with my heart in my hands
I'm asking you to take me just the way that I am
Please lay down your arms, do you know me?
Make me feel safe from harm

Take me, free me, see through to the core of me
Take me, free me, there will be no more pretending

I am temperamental and
I have imperfections and
I am emotional
There'll be no more pretending

Mmhmm...

A Cinderella Story

Tonight is the last night of Cinderella at Chief Logan State Park and it got me thinking about how time marches on, even when we're not paying attention. Suddenly instead of being the awkward kid doing high kicks and staying in the back, I'm 30 years old and trying to get as much attention as I possibly can.

The kids in the show are like we were when we did the show back in 98'. They're forming these bonds with each other and with what they will hopefully remember as their 'home theatre'. It's amazing to think of where we are now and where they will end up. I met some of my best friends on that stage and even though many of us don't talk as much as we used to if you put us together now it would be as if no time has passed. The fights or disagreements we may have had are all part of the tapestry and history of our individual TAS experiences. I encourage all the kids to make their own tapestries and to be proud of them. Put yourselves out on a limb, take whatever part is offered to you and make it huge, in life and on stage. Enjoy your time because before you know it, you'll be missing these simpler times.

I don't think of Cinderella without thinking of that summer, 13 years ago, and how it changed me. I love my TAS family new and old and look forward to seeing where the new generation of the theatre end up.

Now on to the Jungle Book!