OK, so I have been doing this whole not drinking until Rusty comes home thing and it was going pretty well, until last Friday night. I went with Sara and April to wish a friend Happy Birthday at a bar. I think I did pretty well resisting it for a little bit, then I just decided to have one beer. When I finished that one, I wanted another, so I had another. I had thoughts of staying out and drinking all night. It's a good thing that Sara and April wanted to get going after an hour or I probably would have stayed and drank it up.
I felt like I had let myself down and thought about not even talking about it again but I decided it would be dishonest if I lied about it and if I got on here and just pretended that it didn't happen. I try to tell my truth on here and that would have been the end of the blogging altogether, I think.
I'm not sure why I want to drink or why I don't want to stop drinking really. I think I redeemed myself on Saturday night, however, by not drinking the Valentines beer that April brought over. It looked tasty too, a nice little variety pack and my mouth is watering just typing about it. That's awful. lol.
I know I'm not great at being at bars when I'm not drinking. Drunk people when I'm not drunk annoy me and I feel like I should apologize to people who have been out with me and weren't drinking because I'm sure I'm a shit-show. But I also don't ask or want people to take care of me.
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- ronaldthompson1980
- I'm 31 years old and I'm still not totally sure what I want to do with my life. I think, maybe falsely, that a lot of people in my generation feel the same way.
2 comments:
I think just 2 is not a big deal. You shouldn't feel let down. :)
I think three weeks without doing something you enjoy is a pretty good accomplishment. I would'nt be to down on yourself.:-) And I agree with going to a bar and not drinking, its impossible and lame! haha. AND Apology accepted;-)
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