Love? First Love?

i remember vividly
the feeling when lights went out
shirts and pants came off
covers came up over underwear and skin

laying silently beside him
music soft
first love - not knowing

slowing inching closer
quietly
as if neither knew

until
skin touches skin
leg touches leg
frozen
scared

go on?
hoping he will
knowing you would

inching closer
chest to back
warm
soft
love? first love?

is this the feeling?
fumbling
unsure
where to put the hands?

anywhere

timid touch turning to passion
love? first love?
mine?
his?