Profundity

When I write/journal I sometimes feel the pressure to be profound in some way. I sometimes miss the days when my journal said things like, "woke up, went to school, came home, ate, did homework, went to bed." I could sum it all up in a neat little package. When did life get so complicated? Why does everything have to be about something? I want to enjoy life again, like I did when I was a child. I want to take a shower then go outside and rub dirt into my skin just so my mom will let me shower again. Or tie a towel around my neck and play superman. Now I feel like our responsibilities weigh us down and we take for granted the little things. We 'sweat the small stuff'' so to speak.

I was and in some ways probably still am someone who doesn't sweat the small stuff. I know how to leave work at work for the most part, which is a good quality to have, especially in my line of work. If someone is going to slow in front of me I can be O.K. with it. I can generally forgive pretty easily which can be a bad thing sometimes but other times it's great. I just get past things really quickly, it's how I've always been and I like it that way. I like that I don't hold on to ill will toward people, or hold a grudge, and it's hard for me sometimes to understand people who do that. I say let it go. I hold firm in the belief that people change, not necessarily because they want to or are trying to, simply because time changes things. They may be fundamentally the same person but they're different still.

I've changed, I know I have. With each passing relationship or friendship I change. I grow. I learn. Every person that has come in or gone out of my life has changed me in some way. Most times the changes are minute, but occasionally someone gets in and I'm forever changed.

How's that for profound...lol