I think it's difficult enough to even make ourselves happy, we shouldn't have to try so hard to make everyone else happy. I still try though...I can be totally miserable in a situation and continue with it because I don't want anyone to be unhappy. I just want to do the things I want to do, when I want to do them without feeling like a bad person.
There are, of course, things about me that could be 'better' or different. I'm a selfish person, I openly admit that. I do things sometimes, not because it's the right thing to do but so that people think I'm nice, or charitable, or whatever a good person is supposed to be. I know not a lot of people read this and the ones who do most likely already know these things about me but I just thought I'd put it out into the cosmos, the infinite abyss of the internet.
I'm selfish, unkind sometimes, rash, and hurtful. I think some of the most awful things and I don't know why sometimes but I would never verbalize these things. To sum it up, I'm an ass and generally I'm ok with it.
Maybe it should bother me more...
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from a true " people pleaser" thats great i aspire to be more like you. Honestly at this very moment im dealing with a family member thats upset because we (me and my mom) will not allow her 21 year old son to come to our( me my mom and ten year old sister) house for the weekend. She wants him here because she does not want him in her own home alone while she is gone for the weekend.....
Back to the point my people pleasing has only held me back. always put me at the back end.... of some selfish ass hole . im not mad at the asshole though it seems thats just the way it is.
It's true, we can't blame other people for holding us back. We are responsible for every choice that is made in our own lives and if someone is 'holding us back' we are the ones letting it happen. So I continue my quest to choose being happy.
fuck 'em all!!! lol
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