Drinking

Drinking...

Except for about 2 yrs off in my 20's I've been drinking for 10 years...
Why do I do it?
Why do any of us do it?

Escape?
Numbness?

There's a sense of powerfulness and powerlessness at the same time. The feeling that you can do anything but when you do it's not always the best decision...

Do I want to stop or do I feel like I should want to stop?
Can I be out and have a good time if I don't drink?
How do I stop when I'm always in the middle of a party or some sort of gathering?
How do I stop when I don't have the will power?

Do I want to stop?