Walls

I found a quote yesterday and I haven't been able to get it out of my head...

"The walls we build around us to keep sadness out also keeps out the joy." - Jim Rohn

I've built major walls because of fear. I've always built walls in one way or another. When I was younger I built walls so people wouldn't know who I really was because I was afraid if they found out they wouldn't stick around. I tore down some of those walls but then I started getting into relationships and started building more walls. I started changing myself because I was afraid if I wasn't who someone wanted me to be they would leave, never thinking that the person I am is why they were with me in the first place. My walls have ruined relationships for me and I regret it. I found myself trying to build walls against someone recently because it was too hard to feel the way I felt when I talked to him or thought of him. You have to feel the bad to get to the good sometimes. So I'm trying to just let myself feel the way I feel, slobber cries and all, and just hope the good will come...